Name: Raina

Age: 27

Eyes: Lavender-Grey

Hair: Blonde

Skin: tanned, but white.

Appearance: Raina has lavender-grey eyes and slightly wavy mid-back length hair. She has dimples in both her cheeks and a bright smile that can be cold sometimes. She wears conservative clothing.

Status: Single, Leader, Queen

Height: 5'8

History: Raised to be an evil psychotic dictator by her mother and her attendants, she knows no other way to rule. Raina's attendants advise her how to rule and she listens without really questioning them, since her mother told her that the advisers are almost always right.
When her mother died a strange and mysterious death, Raina came into power, with the attendants as her council.
Raina is quite naive when it comes to her attendants, believing most of what they say. She sometimes has to put her nation before her people and thus some of them are suffering.

Home: She lives in a palace that has more rooms than she can count, and most of which she has never seen. She has many servants, but despite that, it still feels empty. Her advisors live in another wing of the palace that she rarely sees, since they go to her with issues. She doesn't have any friends since her advisors tell her that friends would merely get in the way of ruling.
She is quite spoiled and is getting tired of it.
All her family is dead, and they all died under mysterious circumstances. The only constant people in her life are her advisors, who have been advising her family for as long as she can remember.

Personality: She is quite shy when meeting new people, but puts on a cold facade, just as she was instructed to do. If she gets to know them better (for some strange reason), she will become more open and friendly, but not too friendly, since friends will distract her from her country. Not that that's ever happened since most people do not get past her Ice Queen mask. With her advisors she is innocent and naive, quiet and obedient. She listens to them without asking many questions.

Politics: Her advisors want to make her country a fighting state, making sure that no one else would dare defy them. She wants to keep her people safe and thinks that having a big army and her people bar-coded will do so. She wants no crime since she believes that crime makes people unhappy. Both her and her council want the best for the nation, but have slightly different views. She does not want her people to be in pain, and therefore will do anything to keep them from it, even if that means legalizing euthanization. Raina believes that her advisors know what is best for her people since they have been advising her family for a long time. She has her suspicions about her council, but has done nothing about them, just to be safe.

I wrote this in Creative Writing with Karen. It was fun.

I don't get the rules. I mean, i get them, but i don't. o.O.

Ok, let me try to explain. I understand it from both point of views.

On one side, if you're not over your ex, then none of your friends should be after them. Unless you want them to be happy. Well, if you're not over your ex, but your friend likes them, and they like your friend, and you want them to be happy, then... yah, i guess its ok. But if they really are your friend, they probably won't go out with your ex, unless you're not really friend friends. Ya know?

But if you are over your ex, and you're friend does like them and you're super duper ok with up and you want both of them to be happy, well, then, that's ok too.

But if you want your friend to be happy, and your ex to miserable, and your ex and your friend like each other, well, where does that get you? Whose feelings do you care about most? Yours, where you want your ex to be completely miserable, or your friends, who has feelings for your ex?

*sigh*

relationships... no wonder i haven't been in one yet. they're too confusing.

But... things can change.

things change all the time....

Wednesday, April 30, 2003
Some disturbing dreams might bring up doubts that you may have about the motives of someone whom you consider a friend, dear Aries. This person may have been acting strangely, and you therefore could be wondering about the future of your friendship. It's important to look at the symbols in the dream and try to analyze what they're trying to tell you. They might be telling you about your friend, or yourself, or both. Think about it!

Maybe I will.

Sometimes, this song describes the way me and Karen are feeling. Sometimes.


Josie And The Pussycats
Come On

I don't wanna be your girlfriend
I'm just looking for a real good time alright
Can you guarentee me satisfaction
Need some action-gonna get it tonight!
So I'm telling you boyfriend
That you never met a girl like me before
Not gonna wait a long time
Better make up your mind

Are you in? Are you out?
Shake it up, shake it down!
Wanna scream, wanna shout?
Give it up, get it on, or get out!
Come on come on (come on come on)
Come on come on (come on come on)
Come on come on (come on come on)
Come on come on (come on come on)

You know I got my paper venny toy little boy
Replacable, disposable fully action posable
When everything was said and done there's plenty more where you came from
Don't just stand there looking dumb baby you're the lucky one

Are you in? Are you out?
Shake it up, shake it down!
Wanna scream, wanna shout?
Give it up, get it on, or get out!
Come on come on (come on come on)
Come on come on (come on come on)
Come on come on (come on come on)
Come on come on (come on come on)

So come on, so do what you want to do
So come on, I can't wait around for you
So come on, It's not a mystery
So come on, so do what you want to do
So come on, I can't wait around for you
So come on, Be with me!

Are you in? Are you out?
Shake it up, shake it down!
Wanna scream, wanna shout?
Give it up, get it on, or get out!
Come on come on (come on come on)
Come on come on (come on come on)
Come on come on (come on come on)
Come on come on (come on come on)

Are you in? Are you out?
Shake it up, shake it down!
Wanna scream, wanna shout?
Give it up, get it on, or get out!
Come on come on (come on come on)
Come on come on (come on come on)
Come on come on (come on come on)
Come on come on (come on come on)

Ok, that is too fuckin freaky.

I mean, really really freaky...

Tuesday, April 29, 2003
You are looking beautiful and feeling passionate, dear Aries. Now, if only your passions were reciprocated! Even though there may not be anyone special in your life right now, that's no reason not to treat yourself well. Take yourself out for a nice meal or, better yet, order take out and dine at home, complete with candles and your finest china. You should appreciate yourself even if no one else is at the moment.

Its weird. I've been thinking. I mean, just after today. And I've been thinking. Not sure if i wanna think. No, definately not. Don't wanna think. But... after what it said...
i mean, i know its probably stupid, but now its sorta confusing.

I'm confused.

But aren't I always?

Yes...No...Maybe.

Not always. Ok, maybe most of the time, but not always.

Still....

And its not even like it's serious thinking really. I mean its just thoughts.

I get it. I mean, i get it. You won't, cuz you probaby don't really know, but i do, and i sorta get it. I do.

Still...

But its different, ya know?

Well, of course not, but still..

I think i like using saying that, "but still"

I think i use it a lot.

Finding lyrics online gives me something to do than just reading fics. not like reading fics is bad, cuz it's not. But sometimes... ya know?

Yah....

This is a good song.

It makes me want to love. I haven't felt like that... in a long time.

Ever?

probably, but then again, i am a hopeless romantic.

I miss wanting to love sometimes. Its hard just being lusty all the time. Its tiring. it takes a lot out of you.

Its like Karen and Tuck Everlasting. I'm really listening to the words, and ok, its weird, but it makes me want to love somebody.

But not just anybody.

See, now i'm going to go on that thing again, where i try and find the perfect guy, but its like he doesn't exist for me, or if he does, i just don't see it cuz i'm so fuckin blind to whats around me.

oh well

Chris Isaak - Wicked Game lyrics
The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you.
I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you.

I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you. With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)

What a wicked game to play, to make me feel this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you.
What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you and,

I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you.

The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.
I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you.
I never dreamed that I'd loose somebody like you no,

I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you. With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)
Nobody loves no one.

"Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, nor hell a fury like a woman scorned"

~William Congreve, 'The Mourning Bride'

Touch & Go - Straight . . . to Number One
Yeah

Ten . . . kiss me on the lips
Nine . . . run your fingers through my hair
Eight . . . touch me . . . slowly

Hold it! Let's go straight . . . to number one

Seven . . . lips
Six . . . slooowly
Five . . . fingers
Four . . . play

. . . to number one

Let's go straight . . . to number one

One [repeating]

Touch me . . .

Let's go straight . . .

One [repeating]

. . . to number one

Lips
Fingers
Feel it?

One [repeating]

Ten
Nine
Eight
Seven
Six
Five
Four
Three
Touch and go . . .

. . . to number one

I don't/don't care- if it's not
right
To have your arms around
me.
I want to feel what it's like
Take all of you inside me

Chorus:
In your eyes/Forbidden
Love
In your smile/Forbidden
Love
In your kiss/Forbidden Love
If I had one wish love would
feel like this

I know/that you're no good
for me
That's why I feel I must con-
fess
Wnat's wrong is why it feels
so right
I want to feel your sweet
caress

Chorus

If I only had one wish
Love would always feel like
this
Wishin' on the stars above
Forbidden Love
In only had one dream
This would be more than it
seems
Forbidden Love

Chorus

Heaven forgive me
Never forbid me-love
should always feel like this

- Backdoor Lover
Mmmm...Hey
Hey, hey
Backdoor lover
OOOh..

This kind of love is wrong
but you know it feels so right
Runnin' my hands across your cheeks
they're oh so smooth and white
so leave the light on baby
and unlock your back door
i'll be comin' through that way tonight
to love you for sure

Lyin' on your bed starin' up at the moon
you got me crazy
but i'll love you soon

i'm your back door lover
comin' from behind
with the lights down low
back door lover
just you and me
no one has to know
lemme meet you there at your secret spot
i'll show you a love thats
more than hot

You know that i wont hurt you
so open up and let me in
we love eachother way to much
for it to be a sin
some people use the front door
but that's never been my way
just cuz i slip in back doors,
well, that doesn't make me, hey!

lyin' on your bed starin' up at the moon
you got me crazy
but i'll love you soon

i'm your back door lover
comin' from behind
with the lights down low
back door lover
just you and me
no one has to know
back door lover
lemme meet you there at your secret spot
i'll show you a love thats
more than hot

baby, i'm goin' round in circles
cuz you're everything
and you know what i want to do
maybe we can get together at your place tonight
so open your back door tonight

backdoor lover
comin' from behind
with the lights down low
back door lover
just you and me
no one has to know
lemme meet you there at your secret spot
i'll show you a love that's
more than hot

back door love
you know i want it only
back door love
oh............

back door love
you know i want it only
love
oh..................

back door lover
comin' from behind
with the lights down low
back door lover
just you and me
no one has to know
back door lover
lemme meet you there at your secret spot
i'll show you a love thats
more than hot
more than hot

Monday, April 28, 2003

One couldn't really say, dear Aries, that it is very difficult for you to make decisions in your love life. You are a passionate person and you believe in love at first sight. You are probably the most spontaneous lover of the Zodiac! And you are entering a period in which your emotions will be on fire! All the elements are there, dear Aries, to ignite your creativity in every aspect of your life!


hmmmmm... kinda makes me think of what me and Kar and Dikki and Chris were talking about earlier today, as Ryan and Drew were off doing who knows what (personally, i'd rather not know...).

makes me think....

hmmmmmmmm

This is not for you, but for me.

Insensitive ~ Jan Arden {M}

I hear you calling ~ Gob {RP}

You don't see me ~ Josie {C}

Come on ~ Josie {C/K}

Backdoor lover ~ Dujour [Josie] {A}

My way ~ Limp Bizkit {K/J}

(Do you get) Excited ~ Roxette {M/T}

Forbidden love ~ Madonna {T}

Pretty Girl (The way) ~ Sugarcult {M/T}

Always ~ Saliva {M/T}

Maybe's

Crying ~ Aerosmith {T/M ish}

What you are ~ Drill {M/T ish}

Straight to number 1 ~ QAF {its just sexy}

Ok, i think that's it for now. Karen, if you read this and find more, well, let's talk.

Congradulations you are Kimber!


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Kimber was never my fave... I always liked Jem. Kimber was just annoying. But still, sometimes she was ok.

God i miss this show. The 80s rocked.

Congradulations you are Raya!


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huh.... i don't really remember her... oh well...

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ok, I'm probably more like Aja, but still...

Congradulations you are Shana!


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See? I told you...

Congradulations you are Jem!


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YAH!!!

JEM KICKS TOTAL ASS!!!!!

I'm going to be ALL of them!!!

WHEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeee!!!!

Chicken? something buck buck bugawK! bugawk!

....yes. you are so nuts that we can't think of
anything to say. ITCHY LEGS!


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damn right.

hehe.

THE BLENDER!! OHMYGOD THE BLENDER!!!

it was funny.

I'm so happy right now, i could cry.

I waited and waited, and it finally paid off. I got what i wanted.

I mean, waiting about 4 hours to get this one thing.... I finally got it.

I could really almost cry. I think i felt tears when it said that i got it...

how sad is that? i've just wasted my sunday. it better be worth it.

she better be grateful...

Woo hoo!! You're the fun and crazy party girl,
Tabitha! You see the world as a place needing
to "lighten up" and you're just the
little pied prankster to lead the way! Though
some people may not like you very much, you
really don't give a damn! They're just boring
to you, and have no time or need for them.


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dunno if that's true or not...
oh well. Tabby's kinda cool

Pietro! Your head is huge, but you've probably
earned it. You are loyal . . . in your own
strange way. I'm a bit hesitant to say anything
else. If you head gets any bigger, you back
might snap.


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Heheheh. I had to make sure i got him. He's sooooooo funny!!

OH!! I totally forgot to mention this morning!!

So my mom comes into my room this morning to kiss me good-bye, like she usually does. Then, before she goes, she bends a little and I think she's moving something that's beside my bed. Ok, whatever, I go back to sleep. So then, at about 10.30 this morning, i hear this noise and i have no idea what the hell it is. I think its something of my sister's since she is somewhere in the hall (i can hear her). But it doesn't stop. I get up a little, and notice a blue thing beside my bed. It clicks that its a NEW CELL PHONE!!!! I pick it up (fumble with the tissue paper its wrapped in) and its my mom on the other line.

I GOT A BRAND NEW KICK ASS CELL PHONE!!!! W00T!!! And its wicked cool!! I've got games and stuff! I mean, how cool is that. I've got blackjack, poker and and # game. I haven't played any games yet, but my sister and my dad have though. It's all good.

*sighs* life is good. I love my birthday....

Last night was fun. I finally got my bra back from Karen.

But, it was fun last night. Had a good dinner with friends, despite the fact that we had to wait about 30 minutes to eat. But it was fun.
I didn't have to pay. I mean, i didn't really want to pay in the first place, seeing that i am close to broke, but i still feel bad.

Vikki kept initiating the "Tag" game. I think she just wanted to touch me though. (JK!!) But, the best part was when she tagged Jiuna. That was priceless.

I got cool gifts, a hair thingy like Aggie's from Aggie, a box of chocolates from Sheena, and begonia's from Nate. Everything was really cool.

Thanks guys. I had a great time.

Hmmmmm....

I wrote something last night, and its was weird. Not the thing i wrote, that's something completely different. But i think its weird that i wrote it. I mean, this thought just popped into my mind at the end of last block yesterday. Then, later that night, i was listening to my music, and I though of it again, so i wrote it. But... i dunno... i feel kinda bad. not bad, just weird. not even weird tho. Its like, i'm kinda sorry i wrote it, but in an apoligetic way. i don't know why. i sent the story to karen, even tho it was un-edited, and she liked it. I think i made it better. not that i really should have. i kinda want to write more, but there is no more to write, ya know?

ok, i don't know if you're confused by my ramblings, but i know that i am.

i think i'm gonna go panic now.

later.

You are most like Riddick


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You're a perfect match for Richard B. Riddick,
escaped convict, murder. lol. Vin played him in
the awesome movie Pitch Black. Riddick is a
badass man with the ability to see in the dark,
see who's sneeking up on him. He got a shine
job done to his eyes. He's awesome with any
kind of weapon, but his weapon of choice is a
shiv, or knife. He admires strong survival
instinct in a woman. He's sexy, mysterious and
gets what he wants. You like bad guys? This is
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Sexy: Powerful charm, charisma, hot smile and a
sexy body to boot, what else could anyone what?


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If your answers were A,A,C, you are a natural bad
ass!!! You are perfect for him. Go get your
man!!


W00T!!!

You are Taylor Reese!
Your daddy is mean and nasty and you want to be
just like him! You're afraid of not measuring
up. Get out there and prove yourself!


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Heh. I take these tests so i can get the pics.

Oh well.

You are Richard B. Riddick!
You are a scary, scary person! You have the soul of
a felon but the heart of a saint. You know you
would have gone back to save them.


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mmmmmmmmmm........ VIN.

God he's Yummy!!

Heh....